The Shade at the Passage of War (poem)

20 Feb. 2017
The Shade at the Passage of War

i look about, i look inward
inward for the face that was once there
the face that would give me such a scare

i look outward
outward for the face that would glare
i look outward for the face that i would dare
dare you to let appear

it is far and also near.
it is the sum of all my fear.
whether you show it
or choose to hold me dear.

i find that i am able to call you friend
and only you can choose where to let that end.

the cracks, the fractures,
i can offer at least a dozen tools to mend
if that is your desire.

around me is a fire
the face is only fire
and it moves to the edge
not to the center
but you are truth

and if you choose to fear the heat
i can't yet show you much grace
but can accept you
for you are still a youth

but if you choose, we can turn
dancing deeper till our secrets join the earth.

The Plan (poem)

12 December 2016

The Plan

Tell me how this all fits into a plan
how you want me to want you, too.
so you let me go running around.
Into every lie, old and new.
Will they help me, these circuits of pain?
I'm afraid that I'll keep letting go
so who cares if I hold any tighter?
I flee, it's all that I know.

Does it help, that I get turned around?
The end and the center are where I'm bound.
Nothing breaks me of fear, not joy, not the shofar-sound.

Tell me how this all works.
Why do I feel such despair?
how is this helping me want to stay near?
every day, I only feel blossoming fear
and the people with answers, they all disappear
never knowing they're all I hold dear...