My Anger

Obviously not a good title, but the anger indeed tends to be there. It's just usually subtle :)

 The following are the stimuli to this post:

 1. Elad Nehorai tweeted: https://twitter.com/PopChassid/status/696450168032468993

 "Ever had an idea you REALLY wished someone would write about? That means you're supposed to write it."

 2. There exists a passage in Likutei Moharan describing how one kingdom descends into four evil ones. 

There exists a scene in MagicDuel, the Trial of Agony, where there are four trees, and a stump. Next to the stump is a skull. Hanging on the trees are three living, but tortured, humans.

3. In the story of "The Sophisticate and the Simpleton", in the end, the Sophisticate is in a quicksand pit, being tortured by the (Jewish) "Devil" and his assistants. He thinks they are human beings even as they exhibit inhuman qualities.

 "Fool! You still think these are human beings?" He requires special help to leave the situation he finds himself in.

4. https://www.reddit.com/r/DebateReligion/comments/44i197/an_argument_for_strong_atheism/


 I know the refutation here, that no "creation" as defined can be true, and in fact the "creation" we are in is not true. If "create" is replaced with "exist", we have the exact framework for which Mur writes "To understand God, you must understand he doesn't exist".

Maimonides also says quite clearly G-d's existence is not like the existence of other things, i.e. really it should have a different name. Actually, the words he uses are "his being found". :D

But I can't write it in words for anyone else, only for myself.

"I wake you up by speaking what you cannot understand" -- The Tallest Man on Earth

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There are fears about which we write "do not inquire"
"All who go to her, never return"

I was nursed on this truth from before I can remember
 I was nursed on this most useless, most crippling of knowledge.

 I can't move any more.
 I hope only to He who does Not Exist, only to He who is True.

 Is it your fault, or mine? I don't know what I did.
 I wasn't twenty yet, so I don't know.

Using the words of the dead man's skull, the only king I've ever met...
He escaped, he learned that some men are just trees twisted into a cruel face.

I don't need a giant, I don't need a tree, I don't need a beast or a bird or a wind
These are all too cruel.

 Take me to Where does Not Exist
Take me home again
Death is not enough today
I must live and forget life
Take away my time, give me yours...

Notes on a video, notes on a story

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xx4562gesw0

 Particularly note 3:25 --> 8:20
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"The wise man began to praise the king very, very highly.  The king was very humble.  Wherever he had greatness, he had humility.  When a person is truly humble, the more he is praised and made great, the smaller and more humble he becomes.  Therefore, when the wise man praised him and spoke of his greatness, the king became very small and humble, until he literally became nothing.

The king then could not hold himself back.  He threw aside the curtain so as to see the wide man...who knew and understood all this.  In doing so, however, the king revealed his face, and the sage saw him."

("The Humble King", Rabbi Nachman's Stories, by R. Aryeh Kaplan, pp. 134-135)
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 Think of momentum as...well, spiritual state.  A mind hoIds many possible actions, hopes, fears..."position" might be thought of as a set of imagined situations, and "momentum" as one's ability to created a desired/undesired outcome from that situation.  All other properties (Pauli exclusion, energy, mass, uncertainty) can also be transferred, with some work.  I hope I get to do that work, but it might just remain here as a seed.

Learn humility from the neutron star.  And, if you wish, learn much more.  Why, in a "knowing-he-must-collapse" state, would the king be forced to open the curtain?  Why, in that state, does he never (to the eyes of others) collapse?

I wish I knew how to better explain this...there is a lot of overlap between the phenomena described in that video, and this story.

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Other notes:

1. With momentum comes frequency.  There exists a lesson in Likutei Moharan (60-70 range) which describes the difference between someone learning from the tzaddik face to face and learning from a book, that they'll be energized "just right".  If a star holds many frequencies, to the point where that space continually expands, then the process described in this video may be a good way to visualize the concepts of that lesson.

2. As far as Pauli exclusion principle applying in the world of mind.  There exists another lesson in Likutei Moharan (unknown location) which describes a "ladder" of madregas/spiritual levels, and no two people can occupy the same position at the same time, and describes the dynamics of moving on that ladder.  This video may be useful in visualizing that lesson as well.

November 28

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Well, that was a lot of silence.  It's been a busy week.  If you live in the states, I'm sure you understand.

November 28

My uncle decided to send me an internet version of something the Torah teaches about atheism.  I appreciated this.  I know it means I'm on the right track with my studies, actions, and writings right now.  This is a bridge that will be built.  I won't share the teaching at this point on this blog..maybe in context, but not out of context.

I have been bothered for a long time by another person's behavior.  They were assigned a title with power, which cannot be revoked.  They seemed to overstep that title's bound.  I wondered about why, and was having trouble not judging.

I got an answer this week.  It was very precise.  I was put under the same perception he was under [though transposed to a cashiering context] , and was made to understand the special factors at play in his case that made not overstepping so difficult.

And with the help of some miracles, I was even held back from overstepping!  Always nice to know someone's looking out for me. :)

"klal uprat uklal, i atah yachol lidon ela k'ein haprat"

Answers are always nice.  I am glad to understand that person better.

November 9-13

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I had a post for november 9-14, but it seems to have been erased, and I almost definitely don't remember what I wanted to say.  Here's the entry for 9-13, though.

November 9

I tried to sing some poetry last night, and realized that I am not really a particularly good setter at this moment.  There is some poetry by Mur -- "The Mur", "The Empty Wall" -- that really seem to want (not need) a setting, and I've been trying a little bit now and then -- not enough to produce a good result yet.

When I sit down at my computer, I am much more tempted to open Trimps or Swarmsim than I am to open MagicDuel or TextEdit or -- worst of all -- GarageBand.  

(Written on the 9th, actually...yay!)

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November 10-13

I remember no thoughts at all from 10-13  I guess when I work, I just think about work.  Also when I don't reflect until two days after the fact, remembering is hard.

The judgement:  What a pity.